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January 2010
We are selfish to exist
I think if you just read for a while, but not read continuously. I mean if you didn't keep reading. Then you'll have no[...]- 家父今天又發脾氣了，他在上一輩的圈子中好像總要吃虧。怪可憐的，上一輩帶給我的感覺是滿滿的虛偽。見面時令人惡心的客套話、[...]
- Today I planned to go to the study room. But I'm late to sleep yesterday. Thus I was late. I felt sorry for my friend.I[...]
- 昨天睡得不好。「滴、嗒、滴、嗒……」己經是晚上三點多了，有時候會恨自己為什麼晚上總是睡不著，東西都挌到晚上做，日夜顛倒[...]
A coward
I don't know what to do. Live makes decisions. If I had decided something. Usually I didn't do with I deciided.For exam[...]- 最近又讀了一本書，它增加了我對「參禪」的興趣，那種從「參禪之前看山是山，看水是水。」中到「參禪後，看山仍是山，看水仍是[...]
- I'm so worried. What if I couldn't reach the target? It's terrible whenever I figure this question if I did, I couldn't[...]
- 突然有種憧憬的感覺，對某事物的憧憬，但又道不出那是什麼。但這種感覺是有由來的；是從聽了某一首音樂後，加上迅速篩選了一些[...]
The way I found Alice
I never know that iindeed. "Alice's Adventure in the wonderland" is a book which is written by Lewis Carrol in 1865. An[...]Memories
I suddenly remembered that I had a period of time that I'd study hard at F.5. in school. I study really hard at that ti[...]- Now, I discovered a problem to myself. Not really "discovered", just recognized. My perseverance to study is lower to m[...]
- 有時我會研究一些課外的東西，不過就是數學跟電腦為；我得自問，自己是否真的那麼喜歡數學？好像是，又好像不是。有時候會覺得[...]
Losing the aim
I think I got slow in motion. I think delay is more suitable for me because I do everything with delay. Because I was t[...]- 忘記了說，前幾天有親戚來了，今天要走了；沒什麼好說的，只是稍為記不來而已。積極的人會說：「還有三個月纔考試。」，消極的[...]
Short sight
My brother is funny. As I said, he argued again. And he loose again, and he eludes again.However, I did something wrong[...]- 突然憶起，從前自己喜歡下棋；上學時，日日夜夜滿腦子就是棋盤。不知為何，現在總是效下來了，沒什麼所謂。以前下棋，是因為覺[...]
December 2009
Another day of thinking
I'm thinking. I always put my view in the important way and I'd wrong about "think".Thinking is to consider a matter. W[...]- 人生總得定個目標。是時候想想自己到底想做什麼。——沒有目標的人生，雖然不能說這沒有意義，但我還是想定個目標。我那小時候[...]
A year over
A month is over again. And 5 months' over. I wasted two months. I don't know will I waste the others. But seriously I'm[...]- 我都幹了些什麼，我這樣做就等於把一個惡魔引了進來。現在只好不繼提醒自己了。我想，騙自己也差不多夠了。若持續下去，什麼「[...]
Alone
Trust is important in life. But to me, I trust no one. So no one trusted me. My life goes hard and I can do nothing as [...]- 之前提到，「意義」是人為的；所以對於一件事物，某個人的觀點來說，只要跟過住經驗有所衝突，而合理的推論，說得通便是對。因[...]
Warning
Could this worst situation going with me for the rest of the days? I'm poisoned slowly. I must not give up my future. I[...]- 今天討論一下審美觀。審美觀是小時候陪養出來的，在我看了，審美觀一經固定後，便很難改變。它不是先天性的記憶，因此每個人的[...]
The cage
Recently, I'm becoming lazier and frequently trance out in mind.I'm worried. If this happened a longer time. I think my[...]- 至今為止，我纔知道自己給了人家一種「自大」的感覺。而我並不認為自己很自大；或者，對一件事物有信心，然後後言語或行為上表[...]
The things on writing diaries
Why'd people sometimes talk about other persons? I think they wishes to get some recognized for their mind."Do you thin[...]- 人家說時間可以沖淡一切，我對這實在很有共鳴。記得前些日子有個人跟我說，即使你記得某件往事，那時候的情感已經不再一樣，不[...]
Silence
Recently, I watched an advertisement from TV. And get something interesting. The whole motive is about mothers love: 'A[...]- 想不到自己的算術速度這麼慢，花了一天時間纔完成試卷，令人洩氣。今天我想說一下大哥的心理，他吃飯的時跟三哥談及考試技考的[...]
Merry christmas!
I broke the promise... I always broke it. I'm trustless and stupid and lack of self-control. I felt stupid and regretfu[...]- 我以後都不敢在晚上喝提神飲品了，這讓我整天都無法入睡。而且我恨死朋這覺感覺，想睡而又睡不著的感覺，一種精神折磨。這天又[...]
Breaking promises
I thought I lied to myself too much. I used computer again. Well, this time I set a timer to limit the time. At least. [...]- 昨天睡得不好，弄得今天整天都在睡，卻還是睡得不好；現在精神很差，今天完全讀不了書。可是用電腦時腦部竟能「運作暢順」，還[...]
Keep the patience
Infact, reading books are really helpful but time-taking. You have to use most of time in checking dictionary. Flipping[...]- 這是很糟的一天，我第一次嘗到了這種莫名的「糟」的感覺。腦子裏空空的，又帶一點飢渴感。「快點找些東西來想」，像在責罵我，[...]
Another typical day
I sometimes felt annoying when I'm writing diary. I can't trace out anything to write. Especially theses couple of week[...]- 我不太喜歡跟別人辯論，因為怕輪……大概是。被別人否定的感覺一點也不好受，所以我不喜歡辯論。或者是害怕辯論。每個人都會有[...]
The stress
Dad is right. Maybe I've too much wants. I'd required too much. Maybe I shouldn't be so. Perhaps I was wrong.I've to be[...]- 背誦的一個可行方法對我來說，不免就只有不地抄了。一邊抄，一邊念；應該能把它們記住。至少，我曾付出過努力吧。或許是因為寂[...]
Keep practicing
When I picked up my pen. I discovered my hands get dry and it looked like an old man's hand. These "cracks" are annoyin[...]- 今天用了一整天來看書，英文書。希望藉此能增加一點英語水平，結果就是翻了一天字典，學了幾個生字吧。「語言是累積的」，不知[...]
Childhood
Well, In the past diaries. I didn't wrote any "article" for my writing skills. I think I should add one.Many people tal[...]- 很久沒有試過讀書能夠如此爽快，當然這也消耗了相當的精神；加上昨晚只睡了五小時。現在的情況可以說是「透支」了。不幸的是，[...]
Emotion issue
I've a deep impact when my father ask would I pass the generationship to my uncle. That's mean in the families generati[...]- 我能夠消除自己的記憶嗎？有時會突然想起某些過去的事，難堪的事。這令我非常懊惱，很想忘記它。這就是記憶。無論你喜歡不喜歡[...]
The power of musics
"Secret Garden", I like the song but I don't know is there any relation ship to the book with the same name.So I'm talk[...]- 糟糕了，今天的測試證明了我還沒有準備好。只是自己太過自大罷了。不過這還來得及補救。我得加緊温習，要悔過之前對讀書的態度[...]
New rules
I must be faithful when writing this diary. Because this book reflect the "truth" of my heart.What I want to say is I d[...]- 記得某一次到酒樓吃飯，好像是因為嫲嫲辦八十大壽。對面坐著兩個年紀跟我差不多，有點玩世不恭的少年。我在他們眼中看到了些許[...]