I thought I lied to myself too much. I used computer again. Well, this time I set a timer to limit the time. At least. I had stopped when the time is up.

One an a half hour. If it's the daily limit, the a used 45.6 days a year, thats one and a half month. Sounds good, right? However if you just exclude the days after the exam - 3 month left. Thats 10 days and an hour and a half.

12 days, almost 13% of the days used. Thats mean if I do. I'll have less than 80 days to studies.

And that exclude the fact that "tranced out thinkings". Still good huh? 1.5 hour per week. That's more sensible for a rest. I only used a day to play.

Now choose a day for the rest time. Friday? No, the following is Saturday. I must wake up early on that day. Maybe Saturday is good. This time I must swear I won't break the promise. Last chance, the time must be less than 1 hour.

3 months left I'm worried about "commerce". There is 14 chapters to recite. And I get none of them can completely remembered. I'm worried. So much pressure to me, squatting on my brian.

But an other similar subject - CIT. Have the same feature that need to recite. Amazingly, I did it so easily and have no such problem on it.

How come?

Maybe thats the matter of "care". If you enjoy the relative information. You'll put more "care" on it. Another has less but you couldn't control how much "care" you put onn which how much you don't. Thats why someone has a good performance on some skills and some a weak. Nobody is perfect. I think its true for me. Apparently I'm not good at all but a lltle.

Althought it's really happened to us. We still can change by striving on it, but slowly, littlely.

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