I've a deep impact when my father ask would I pass the generationship to my uncle. That's mean in the families generation graph. My name will appear under my "uncle". That's mean I should call him "father".

Its difficult to say what is the impact really look like. Maybe that's broken heart. But I've no such "heart" to break. Thus that "impact" is strange that I couldn't call it "impact".

Maybe just astonished. I didn't expected that my father has this "thought" stored deep in mind. I'm really suprised.

He asked what I suppose to do, to deside. Well, I rapidly denied the suggestion. Even now, I do so. I've made a friendship in the place. I can't leave it that quick. I've no preparations and I love this fast internet. That fast.

I'm not going to talk with this anymore.

Perhaps I'm an emotional person. I found that I've these personality. I just refuse to accept it. And even be the opposite. My outside is cold and insidde is warm. That's why sometimes I cried when I'm in a deep blame.

When I'm F. 2. At a day of N.E.T.'s lesson. The teacher called "David Dearman." He leave me outside the classroom and stand opposite to me. He is huge, I'm afraid. I cried. Then he is annoyed. He asked "Why are you crying?" I just cried. I didn't answered. Then he just asked me to go. Run around somewhere. It worked. I'm not cried again. Until now, I still didn't remembered what it's really happened on that day.

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