Now, I discovered a problem to myself. Not really "discovered", just recognized. My perseverance to study is lower to minimum during these serveral weeks.

I have to do something...

But how? What cause the happended? Delay, I always delay. Wasted most of the time to being in trance. Or other unrelated fault. Today, I just done a paper and most of the time I couldn't remember where did they go.

This similar happened again and again. And it's annoying me whenever I'm writing diary - writing a summary.

Seriously, I really not willing from the situation above.

How could a person can shift their concerntration to others when they're aching?

I'm alone. No one could help. Or choose to wait? Wait for exam, with no worries, neither studies. Just like the past year. Getting 12 marks than go out for work?

What bend my life? Computer? Music? Or myself? Lose controls like a broken line? Untracked train?

You couldn't get if you don't pay.

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