Roll back to 5 months before. The day of result-releasing. There is a huge difference now. That day, we all sit together. How close where we, meeting the same feared. It's hard to belive that I was in that place. Things are moving too fast and changing too much that you couldn't belive how it passes.

Of course, the biggest thing to me is study myself, alone. Could you imagine that your life become just onlyy read and study? But I'm lucky in someway. I've things to do. Better thann who don't.

Perhaps I want to get someone's pitty. Or someone's care. But if I do I'm weak. So I must used to be alone. I already did. Perhaps I shouldn't even think about it because if you do, then you're already felt alone. One thing important forget it, forget the feel of "alone" even the word "alone".

Humans always want to "show off" theirselve. Infact "being alone" could be a thing to show off that few people do felt "alone" in a long time. But we must to, I must. It's kind of stress releaseing. Because I don't have someone to share with so I write them down.

Too slow, too slow to think, too much time to wait. I think my writing could improve in someway. But not nothing improve but rotten.

I didn't keep read. That's the main fact.

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