End of the month. I'd done nothing for this. So I should think "Where is time I'd wasted?" So many, I'd slept badly and worked badly. Then I start using computer again. Perhaps I'm falling. "A long fall".

Two months, what the hell I'm doing?

Can be avoid if you do have some prepare, but if you don't you've to find some "back door" that why so called incidence. Because we are human, so we have to.

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