Infact, reading books are really helpful but time-taking. You have to use most of time in checking dictionary. Flipping pages skimming words. And that is an old dictionary. You could find a word not exist on it.

However, reading books still have a great benefit if you keep your patient on it. You may review the chapter you recently read untill you finally understand most of the content. Until there is no need to flip the book.

And that is it. I used many days to read a chapter. Maybe three days for six pages. Or maybe more...

I'm thinking that I was stupid to flaunt my friend. I felt guilty for my behaviour. Humans always think themselves better than others. I'm in the circle. Maybe I can just leave it and let it become a forever lie.

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