Recently, I'm becoming lazier and frequently trance out in mind.

I'm worried. If this happened a longer time. I think my ambition may go dangerous. Generally I'm bored at studying those subjects. Instaed, I began to fall - fallen to the past. Or returned.

I'm driving crazyy in "programming" It pulled me into the deep sea. Maybe I'm feeling helpless so I given up - free to fall. As if a mice tray. I did know it is a trap. Or not because I'm now suffered inside. As if a caged bird. It wishes out and I'm the bird - in the "world cage"- the door of the cage is opened. But my first action is to ask different from those "What if I stay?"

Of course, the door is always opened. But there is few people walk over it because they wish to stay. How could a bird wishes to stay under the cage?

Maybe the thing is a bit out of track. But this is the best way to describe my fear. If you don't studies you could not success in HKCEE. Then you couldn't upgrade to ALE so as the college. Finally your life is done. Similarly stopped.

"You lose! Out of the cage!" like a little. Few people could break the rule. They got talent. But not me. Out of the cage, few people can return with a giant pulse of famous. They got volition and paitience. But not me.

So as a normal people. I must think as normal, act as normal. Whishes normal.

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