I must learn how to let a thing go. "Let it go" is easy to say but not easy to do. So if you have some idea in your mind then the idea is trapped from your mind, or the idea did.

Time, which can really wash your misery, although it can not eliminate, but reduce your pain, gorciously. Remember the day of result-releasing. It have an impact of my brain but now, I let it go - even perhaps let it back, of this situation is keep over, but much like to wait. See the problem but not react, or know the promblem but avoid to see.

Maybe that big impact could back. Crash me again ...

I have sins, not to god, but to myself. Because a lie too much to myself. I don't like to study but I repeat, I've a big respect to my result of exam but I'd a long time not event touch a back or notes. I'm mad, sins of mad. and lying. Now I discovered that those people who though me as a self-estimated sometimes true.

Again, I lied to myself, elude from the responsibility. Just talk, but no act. Why? Or I could imagine that some people are worser than me. Maybe that could make me happier. But this will just like close my eyes and said the world doesn't exist.

I'm doing nothing but waiting for, as if this isn't me, fail. Day after day, will the lying never reach the end?

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