Could this worst situation going with me for the rest of the days? I'm poisoned slowly. I must not give up my future. I need to go college! I don't want to wast my time I spent before. Just keep going patience for another three month. It that really that hard?

Wake up dude. Look around your desk. What is the most need to handle and must aware? Don't forgot your promise. You're lying on your self. Who's got harm?

You! Wake up dude! Pick up your books, do study, okay?

I must keep remind myself. school is gone, no more test, no more exam, no teachers will keep watching you, looking after you. You're the rest, you only - only you can help yourself.

What were you standing for? To beat down these people who beat yout. Already forget? Then this is the alarm to wake you up. Keep away from the computer. It is unecessary now.

Do some deep breath, release those thing that filled up your mind. Refill it with the knowledge of exam.

Looking back to four months ago, time is running that fast. I have to repeat. Eight months ago, the exam started, I felt nothing is important. What's the matter. Who cared?

I had a dream. Today I dreamed that I failed in the exam, again. I didn't cried, sad or with feared. But a but already-known. Because that situation assumed me from that day - which I slept yesterday - I'd never study till the day. Much like a foresee. Warnimg me, if I keep not aware myself.

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