I think if you just read for a while, but not read continuously. I mean if you didn't keep reading. Then you'll have nothing learnt as begin.

So its not a problem of writing or keep writing something. If you don't read. Your writing skills will just be the same as before. Because you are always you was, nothings changed, as if you don't learn.

Keeping both ore important but both spent time and you won't get what you need if you don't spent more. Like the other subjects.

I always remind myself. This is a warning. 3 months left and it's decreasing. I'm feared and distressed and dazed and frightened and wishes to turn to a dust. Or all my troubles could vanished at a moment. Then I just wait ...

But thats seems not going to happen. It silly, isn't it?

If I could think like Alice "Whait, maybe I could. (Shutting like a telescope.) If I know how to start." It sounds stupid but a confidence, to belive, of what you couldn't do is nothing - to belive I can do it.

But I'm not ALice. I never fall in to a rabbit hole and a queer world.

Everyone's life is a story. There is 6 billions of book and most of them are similar. My life is a story. And it also similar as others. Why the world needs this huge of similar? Why we're selfish? We all selfish to live, feared to die. Maybe all creatures do. This pen do, this desk either ...

I can say "Exist is a kind of selfish" because we're selfish of our existence.

Or, I'm puzzled.

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