Something must place here. Because I don't want someone know about. I think this is still a good decision.

I saw a family's dirt. my father's family is so dirty that I don't want to step on. The luna new year is coming. I'm worrying of the day. They're all - .

Infact its my fault. I never see the whole matter. I just see one side of the fact. In this side I see his fault, her fault, their fault. But those not true. In other side, they're all my fault. I suddenly want to be turned to a dust. There is no room for me. I'm ashamed.

We always think about I did wrong and let many chances go and regret for those passed away. It's OK. This is life. Life is filled with dizzy of future and regretful past. I don't remember which I read, but a book, tells me the fact.

But those are memorized, it is not about regret, is how you accept, and the next step to correct.

What do you want? Where will you go? Who you want to be with? When is the rest? Why is me? Future is filled with those question and past may answer some of them, or not yet. To me, now there is obviously just only one thing to do and my question is "How can I make the best?" and "What if I failed?" I'm afraid to peek my future, hoping the time's stop, or skip that period. However those questions still exists and none of the hope will be true.

In my past, I'm regret. Hoping could eliminate those memories.

What do I want?

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